Thursday, September 8, 2016

Getting Back on the Bike

I did something empowering yesterday.

For you to understand my little triumph, I need to tell you what happened 3 years ago on a day that I set out to ride my bike from my home to the canyon - a 15 mile one-way trek. At about 10 miles into the ride there was a blockade with a sign saying that the bike path was closed. I started following the detour signs but they led me astray and I ended up getting lost---I never found the bike path again. When I called my husband to come pick me up, I learned that he had abruptly left town and had turned off his phone. I felt lost and abandoned there on the trail and also in my troubled marriage. I stood there holding my bike with tears rolling down my cheeks feeling powerless.

I can't explain how it happened, but in my pain I had a born-again moment. I finally realized that I really was powerless ---I could not fix my marriage no matter how hard I tried. That day I looked up to heaven and told God that I couldn't do it any more and that I was giving my people and my problems to Him.

It was the first day of my own recovery. It was almost like I had been stuck on the back of a tandem bike for years going places that I didn't want to go and on that day I got off and got on my own bike and said, "God, I'll go where you want me to go."

Recently I've been thinking that I should get back on my real bike and head towards the canyon for a redo and have my husband come pick me up and erase that memory now that things are going more smoothly in our marriage.

So yesterday I got my grandma body on my 20 year old mountain bike 
and peddled towards the morning sun,
 I rode past American flags,

people walking their dogs, 
a lacrosse team practicing in a field,
 views of the valley,

 a father on roller blades pushing a stroller,
sparkling water spraying from sprinklers,

Little bum bikers whizzed by me.

One of them said "Good Morning" as he passed and then I saw that he only had one leg.
I saw a family of six on 2 tandem bikes built for 3.

 It was a beautiful day.
 When I got to the canyon after 15 miles of riding,
I stopped to enjoy the scenery

 and then I thought, 
 "I don't need my husband to come get me. I can get back home by myself!"

So I turned around and peddled 15 miles back home.

My big bum hurts today and that is okay. I feel powerful, strong and independent.


"Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life." -2 Nephi 31:20

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